IT NEVER ENDS UNTIL "IT" SAY SO

LIFE...Life can be define in so many different ways.Such as life is like a football,life is like a ferris wheel,life is like a rollercoaster and bla2 :)
But,i define life as a story written in sweet and unforgetable memories.As years pass by,we will keep aging and every year we will begin with a new chapter.
Sometimes life can be very unexpected and very unpredictable.Life can sometime has its ups and downs,and life can force us to make decision that will change the story completely...But that makes life more interesting,because as we get older we will have a story to tell to the younger generations.That story can be a lesson or an inspiration so that the younger generations can keep dreaming and believing of what they will become when they grow up..
But the most important thing is to cherish those memories and make every second in life counts.Because we only have one chance to live life,there ain't gonna be second chance so live...
That is the part where the story ends and every chapter will be organized and be put into a book.It will be rad and be judge wether it's good or a bad writing..
BUT hey,like i said...CHERISH those memories an MAKE every second counts :)...If you fall,please get up and get back into the right track.It's never too late to make your story better.With a lil bit of perserverance and determination,and alot of praying and faith in GOD..in god's willing,we'll all have a better and interesting story to tell..



Thursday, 21 April 2011

THE GREAT DEPRESSION

Seriously i'm really piss off and frustrated.I'm frustrated because i cut my hair and i'm piss off because i had to cut it.It all started when i keep a promise to her that i will cut my hair after spm,but i never did.It's because i'm not ready to cut my hair and i have a certainty that i will look bad.
 What a stupid promise i made to myself and also her.After a months,i came to a decision that i will cut my hair and i don't want to dissapoint her.Whenever she call me,she would ask me when will i cut my hair.My answer would be i'm not ready yet or i don't wanna cut my hair.But,if answer those i'm dead serious...I never told her about my past and she only knew quarter of it.
  When i was in miri,i'm a bit of a nerd and i really have low self esteem and self confidence.It's because my so call "friends" would make a joke out of me and i was a laughing stock in class.Does'nt matter if i was in primary or secondary school,i'm still just a laughing stock...They would called me the alleycats,"sarang tebuan","palak bulat","ball headed boy" and "round up cowboy".Sometimes they would stick something into my hair and just let it stick into me,if i refuse they would say i'm not sporting and open minded.
 So i came up with a solution of cutting my hair short,i thought i was all over but i was wrong.They always had a name just in store for me.They would greet me and say,"kck na rmbut ko jat,kdk muka sek" i ingnored those comments..i still remember they called me "shit head".
 That's what happened to me in the past,eventhough some of my friends keep encouraging me and try to gave me some confidence.But i still lack of it.
  But everything changed when i came to kuching,my friends would say my hair is "rugged" or "kacak".they were encouraging me to keep my hair long or just maintain the same.But sometimes,i have to follow by the school rules.Whenever i cut my hair short,they would say "syg rmbut ko pendek,da x ensem gk.P kin macho." I'm really flatered by their comments and to be honest they never called me names or say hurtful thing to me.I really appreciate as friends and as best bro's.
  But thing does'nt run as smoothly as i thought it would be,some people were just too over their heads.They would laugh at me when i cut my hair short,i remember them.
   Sometimes when i cut my hair,i would lost self confidence,SERIOUSLY..I would'nt go out with my family or with my friends.I would stay at home doing nothing and try to gain back my confidence level quickly.
  Now i'm not mad at her,i'm just very dissapointed.I did this because i don't wanna make you dissapointed in me and i don't want you to get fed up of reminding me to cut my hair.Senang crita la,panda mok jaga ati garfield and panda xda niat mok plh garfield sdih..I'm sorry if lately i don't wanna text you or call you.I just need a little time alone..Hope you understand.
  Remember this,I STILL LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT and I REALLY MISS YOU.
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